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| Living not surviving
by msgardener at 6/6/2008 12:04:51 PM
I wake up uncertain, unsure, slightly shy, slightly fearful and mostly doubtful. I have some projects weighing heavy on my mind. I did make progress yesterday, got an old Subaru on the road. It had sat for five years, so it has got some driving to do before it runs smoothly. I got my appointment with Vocational Rehab it is on the 11th I am very pleased. My life is moving again since my decisions are living decisions instead of survival decisions and with those my life stays in limbo with little or no progress. The doors are opening since I changed my mind and settled on the simple. Now things are moving and I feel the load is lighter and I can tell myself, the doubting is from being off course, for weeks in a row. I am committed to my Grandson. I am giving him support while his Momma works nights and his Daddy is a full time College student. I told my family I would help them achieve their goal while I recoup from my second divorce as I need their Love and support to help me gain energy to establish new goals for my life. Living with younger people is a challenge my sleeping patterns are messed up. I am a morning person who stays up late, when I am able to sleep without interruption in a quiet low stress environment I do well with 5 to 6 hours sleep. When I do hard physical labor I need 8 to 9 hours good sleep.
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