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| This F#@Ked up world we all live in. me for to be one here.
by hyperm1k3 at 3/17/2009 3:06:34 PM
Well today has just been a real shitty day. i mean its gone well like every other day but i have a feel deep down inside something bad is going to happen; when im not sure but something bad not good. I feel i dont really have a purpose in life anymore, I feel that what is there for me. yeah i know i know what to do with computers and im in school and i really like my job. But i think it has to dow ith living where im living right now. my roommate is like my girlfriend but she is not. but she acts like we are together and expects me cater to her and f**k that shit. im not going to. and im tired of her attitude that she has. i dont think i can take much more of it much longer. Plus i think it has alot to do with me being alone all the time as well, noone there to hold me and care for me as well. I want to someone to care for as well, but i think it has alot to do with that to be honest, but i just dont know what to really do. i have nowhere else to go that i can live and i dont make enough money to rent any room of any sort. so im kinda stck where im at right now. i mena i only pay 150 where im at now but i have to deal with her shit and its getting old real quick. What do you think? what are your opions on this matter? please leave me any comment you want but let it be postive though. I just dont know what else to think or do anymore. sometimes at night i just wish that i would just fade off the face of the earth because i feel noone would even care or miss me that im gone. Sorry if i sound to be alittle EMO but thats the way i feel right now and i dont think anything can change that right now. Like right now i just want to get away either by myslef or with somone and goto a beach away from everyone. if its with myself or not. i just need to get away. i would love to start a new life or something. but that would be highly not going to happen. im 23 f**king years old and i feel that this is all my life is going to be. boring to the core and noone there to help me to get back to the light and hold and care for me while i do that for myself. i just wish thats all i want is for a few of my wishes to come true. maybe in time and for things to change as well with me to. . so please if you have any input please feel free to leave me something. thanks for reading this lame a** blog.
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