I hate it when my thoughts lead me nowhere

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I hate it when my thoughts lead me nowhere
by jo52562 at 3/26/2009 3:49:08 PM

For the last few weeks I seem to have this problem - the thoughts keep coming - yet I'm going nowhere...
The last year or so I have had my trials and tribulations, I'm sure I'm not alone when I say this - but at times it does feel like it's just me - alone.

When I lost my boyfriend, I thought my world had ended at the time - but as I started to piece things back together, I was hit with another blow and I lost my job - signs of the economy, so in my own way, I put myself back together again. Everything happens for a reason - right? So in all my wisdom, I decided that a career change was in order and I decided to take classes online for my Associates degree - haven't been in school for 35 years. It felt right! I felt good! I can do this - I'm strong, I'm smart and I'm in control.

However - my decisions, the timing, the economy, the job market, the housing market, whatever way you want to look at it have made me question - What did I do? What was I thinking? How did I get here? I'm proud of my independence and my ability to be able to think things through and coming up with a decent solution. So I'm thinking.... and I'm not coming up with a decent solution.

This is not an oh woe is me blog - they are just my thoughts --that are leading me nowhere at the moment - but everything happens for a reason and I will find what the reason is. I'm grateful to have my thoughts - just frustrated that I'm in limbo at the moment.

Thank you - I feel better - now let me get on with my thoughts and follow the path that will lead me to somewhere!

Comments
atlagain	3/26/2009 4:55:04 PM J: you know that rocky path will straighten out eventually. I know it's tough walking it right now with all that seems against you (so to speak). But you said it when you pointed out "It felt right! I felt good! I can do this-I'm strong, I'm smart and I'm in control." It's right because it just IS. You just don't feel control right now. Let it flow my friend. It will flow right back to you. Soon.
standup4me	3/26/2009 6:50:50 PM Just seems that these same thoughts plague a lot of us. My life isn't exactly the way I had planned last year either and all I have to do is have enough patience to wait until June to feel right with myself. No, hasn't anything to do with any men because I haven't found any stability in any that I know.Sorry, off track here with my thoughts.
romanticlady4u	3/26/2009 7:00:36 PM I think you should be very proud of yourself for your accomplishments. Its normal to have the feelings you have, we all go through it. The important thing is, you don't just sit around saying 'whoa is me' you get out there and do what you feel is right and take chances. You go girl!
jo52562	3/28/2009 9:21:28 AM Atl - thank you friend - you have a very special ways of putting things in perspective. Now when that path straightens out I hope it goes down hill too! Standup - No worries that you got off track with your thoughts. They will lead somewhere eventually - we just need to be patient. Romanticlady - You are extremely kind, your encouragement is greatly appreciated. The path leads me to where I'm supposed to be and I learn something from each destination I am led to. I know that and I will. Thank you all again - It's doesn't go without acknowledgement and love!
knightkosd	4/30/2009 6:45:22 AM Sometimes if you just sit and relax for awhile, an answer will come. I'm 45 and because of surgery that will happen early 2010 I will be out of my CAREER and have to start over. But its ok and I'll be ok. You aren't alone. Just go with it. You'll be fine
bevyea	5/13/2009 9:49:51 PM Jo, Thoughts get to us all. You seem to have made plans stick to them, I did, through thick and thin. You know what you are worth, don't change your opinion....I agree with you that each path leads you to where you are suppose to be. Think of it...kinda like a video game. Gather the tokens for use when you really need them...LOL "When you change the way you look at things the things you look at change" Here's another one...imagine yourself surrounded by what you want to accomplish...think from the end. Imagine you've already accomplished your dreams and you'll be there in no time.