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by lilfreaki at 4/18/2009 8:47:38 AM
For three days I have woke up with this horrible feeling of impending doom. It's as if God and Satan are in a battle for my life and my soul. As you all very well know, I believe fully in God!!! He is our creater, Father, and the only one who should EVER rule our lives!
In all honesty though, I have not graced the doors of a church service in over four years. I was hurt very badly when the church that, I belonged to-practically black balled me because I became pregnant with my son (unmarried). Most of the members of this church were my very own family which, hurt about a thousand times worse! I was really involved with the youth in the church, helped with Vacation Bible School, and was a Missions Teacher for the little children on Wednesday nights. If you cannot rely on family then...who can you rely on? God that's WHO!!! I have come to realize lately that, because of the actions of people-I allowed them to make me turn my back on my very bestfriend, my confidant, my EVERYTHING-God!
These days...I am alone with my two children. I am at my wits end and I realize that I need God in my life now more than ever before! He never turned His back on me, He never walked out on me, and He never even turned His face away from me! I did it to Him! He was with us all the time-just begging me to let Him in... I just have this feeling this time that...it's now or never. God does not give up on us, but the Bible does speak of the last call... I am so tired of trying to pull the weight on my own and I cannot do it ANYMORE!!!
I don't know what your plans are for today, but my plans are to invite God back into my life to stay forever and ever...If you haven't already done so yourself please think about it?! There is nothing that our God cannot help us get over, through, and beyond!!!  
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