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by shempster at 6/10/2009 8:11:48 PM
while growing up I had trouble seperating reality from fiction this lead to me having a ton of imagenary friends which lead to difficulties later.
I also discover my sexualality early I am a hetrosexual
I began masterbating at age 3 and still do that would have declined but I was caught by both my grandma and mother one of which slapped me for it so when my system came of age I would wake up with panic
attacks from my wet dreams. I only recently learned I could not keep info in my head to do a vitamin difficieny(sp) I was asked out in 6th grade my a girl named shelly I think my steel trap is slipping. I had a girlfriend next door we broke up because I DID NOT WANT TO KISS HER boy was I stupid. I was smart but never did well academically partly my bad hand writting is the result of a teacher in first grade who constantly complained I was holding up the class and it forced me to write faster the other is my crainiocynotosis that was corrected leaving me with an inabilty to focus I saw two of everything when I tried to concentrate I kept putting everything in the upper right had corner when told to put the dot in the center one image was larger and the other was microscopic it turns out the microscopic one was the center. home life was a disaster when ever I treid to help I would get yelled at told that I was doing it wrong deliberately so I gave up trying. here are some other tid bit that have come to me lately up until my first communion I believed crying was a sin, and I know I as a baby slept in church not because it was boring but because things I could not see would attack me only in church they could not get to me.
My parents fought constantly over money I only learned later it was over food, please , pleaase please if a marriage isn't working don';t stay together for the kids it is much better to divorce. as a result I spend the better part of my life hating marriage.
next my decent in sci fi, fantasy, keeping things real
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