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| 2009/06/23
by slip_kid at 6/24/2009 2:30:46 AM
My (ex)wife called me yesterday and left a message asking me to call her back. She didn't say what she wanted.
I called and she didn't answer, so I left a message for her. A few hours later, she called me back and began telling me about how her younger sister had just broken up with her boyfriend and she was staying with her to help comfort her. It seems he (a formerly abusive former alcoholic and drug-addict) had been caught by her smoking crack. They argued about it and he hit her. Although there seems to be some possible subjective interpretation regarding the word "hit," the fact was that she should've never been with this guy in the first place.
My first thought, unfeeling though it may have been, was, "SO?" I really couldn't see the relevance to my life or the reason why she would've contacted me, of all people, to relate this story. Anyway, into the conversation, she asked me if I ever missed her. Not knowing what to say without coming off sounding like a total jerk, I said, "sure." She then told me that she had been missing me lately... and she waited for a reaction. I didn't say anything... intentionally.
Although a big part of me feels a connection to her, she left me WHEN I was sick and BECAUSE I was sick. For her to just casually come back thinking she can do this whenever she wants is NOT something I'm willing to endure. Besides the fact that I don't trust her now, I really don't have any feelings for her. I'd rather stay alone for the rest of my life than to subject myself again to that kind of relationship; she lived for herself most of the time we were married and she expected me to live for her too. I guess there are different types of giving and taking, but I'm no longer willing to give her (or anyone else) that kind of relationship.
That's all for now...
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