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by chat_girl at 8/28/2009 6:56:17 PM
I am the oldest of 5 children.. I spent the majority of my childhood serving my parents.. I would get my siblings up in the morning.cook breakfast.. get us all off to school and then in the evening after school have dinner on the table by 5:30 before my parents got home from work.. My baby sister said I was her second mother LOL..
I am widowed, was married for 17 1/2 years I had a good marriage.. we had our ups and downs... but used those times to make us closer.. I barely knew my husband when we married a total of 9 months only seeing eachother on the weekends during brief moments at work.. We met at sixflags over texas..and became engaged in front of the candy kitchen (candy store)in the texas section of six flags. He used to drive me home after work in his 1957 edsel..we would set outside for hours and just talk. we became best friends as well as lovers.. We were never blessed with children.. I miscarried in our 7th year of marriage was never able to concieve since.. although there isn't any reason why I cannot..
I consider myself intelegant but not educated.. I am analytical.. sometimes I may think too much about somethings and get myself worked up over nothing..i am passionate about my faith although it has been tested quite a bit in the last 5 years..
I love people.. I will give them the benefit of the doubt simply because I soo much want to believe they are good..Too many times that has come back to bite me..I am way too trusting I guess. i am extremely honest.. and do not lie.. I am a Christian and believe when i stand before God he will hold me accountable for every word that has come out of my mouth..
As a woman I can get Jealous.. but I fight hard to over come it..once I was so determined to kill that jealous demon that I actually went to two women That I was jealous of and confessed to them that i was and asked them to forgive me.. That completely blew them away.. and even though I deal with that ugly thing from time to time I always seem to beable to keep myself in check.. and not use an opportunity to try to hurt that person.. My desire is to Love people the way Jesus Loves me.. Unconditionally.. Not always so easy to do.. I will however.. if I feel that someone is trying to undermine my character out of spite or jealousy.. Will call them on the carpet if possible.. or stop it quietly..
I see people as vulnerable and all need to be loved.. sometimes i think people do spiteful, devious things simply out of fear.. ( hurting people hurt other people).
Being single again is very difficult and lonely because you never know who you can trust.. and as a single woman dealing with those that think I am after their man..
Sometimes I feel like I am in another demension I can see everyone but they can't see me..it's as though I am invisable how I would love to break through that barrier and fit in.. I guess that's the big question where do I fit?
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