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| what to do when you consider yourself gay and yet.
by marymiso at 9/7/2009 6:59:06 PM
what t do when you consider yourself gay and yet you fall for someone of the other sex?
every time this happens [only happened about 3 times] i get so confused.
when i fall for a man it always tends to be someone i cant be with.
first guy i was with for 2 years so yeah i got one guy.
but the other two... my BEST friends.
i dont know what to do.
the first one Skum.. things got a little hard but that was because of the distance. we never "dated" but we got very close. still are but just friends now. so that didnt work out because i was not and are not good enough persay
and now... my best friend of 3 years.. i think i truly care about more then a friend.
he is amazing. i want to tell him. i need to but i know it is going to change so much if him and i dont date and the chance of us dating.. slim to none.
i know you all are going to say
if he does not like you he is not worth it
not thats not true he is worth so much in this world, and i am not. he thinks i am amazing. but i think that does not go past friendship.
i think he is hot
he thinks i am cute/pretty
i like his body
he likes my rack
lmao
he wants a cute punker/skinbyrd and i want a nice punker/skinhead man lol
i just think because we are such great friends he wont see me as more then just a friend and if he does he wont want to risk our friendship
his one ex gf he is no longer even friends with but that is partly because she is crazy and they were never friends before they dated so they dont know how to be just friends.
i get along with most my exs and yeah
i want to give it a shot so bad. in a few more weeks i think i will tell him if it does not come up or if he does not find someone else.
i know he wants to be single for a bit and stuff or jsut have a chill gf. i would still let him do all the stuff his ex wouldnt
i would let him party. hell i would want to go with [she didnt want to ever go and wouldnt let him go... lame] i would let him have his guy nights no big deal. i would even let him still hangout with his other friends that are girls and not worry and freak out like his ex did. i just wish he knew all of this and liked me. i reallly want him to like me. i cant get him off my mind i feel like i am having my first crush all over again and its killing me
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