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| i just dont know....
by pennylayne25 at 9/14/2009 6:59:23 PM
i think that relationship troubles can all be chalked up to "it wasn't meant to be"
for example..
if you have a fight about something that can't be compromised or agreed upon then that probably just means that some greater force is trying to see that you don't stay together.
if you feel like you deserve something that the other person refuses to provide, then again, chalk it up to incompatibility.
if you hate something the other person loves (im talking big things like Jesus and Children not things like cereal or cars) then there really is no way to change the way someone feels about those things. therefore, a successful relationship can't really ensue.
relationships should be really easy at first. your always going to have to work to keep them together but they shouldn't be 50/50... they should be 100/100. you shouldn't half-ass something that you want to keep forever.you shouldn't each give half... you should each give ALL.
you washyour car because you want it to last. you pay your bills because you want to be comfortable. you take vitamins to keep you body working well.
why wouldn't you work as hard as you could for the one thing you say you want?
I was recently called a "game player" by a man that I actually liked quite a bit. I never had an unkind thought about him. but because I feel like I deserve to be desired by the person im going to be with, he says i am playing games with him.
i feel like I deserve to be chased a little. i will chase back, but i dont want to be the only one providing all the effort and I think thats understandable. who doesn't want to feel like they are the only thing you can think about (even if its not true) ? i have shit going on too but that doesn't mean that the thought of the guy im diggin isn't on my mind all day long.
but im sorry.. im not going to call anyone all day, im not going to pursue something that I feel isn't leading anywhere.
if your not into me, just SAY that. im SUCH a lady and I can take it better than any one you have ever met, trust me.
i met someone off here once that just wasn't attracted to me when he met me in person. my ego was a little bruised but I respect him a thousand times more for telling me the truth than the guy who has been stringing me along for an entire month being all fraudulent. most importantly, i HANDLED it.. with class..no problem.
WHATEVER you have to throw at me i can handle it. but i WONT be f**ked with. the first time i think your seeking me out just to break me i will bounce and never think of you again.
i just feel like the guy for me, the one im supposed to be with, will be very close to everything im looking for. im not picky... i don't see what the problem is?
i think i just pick crazy and/or damaged and/or MEAN men to be with. the nice ones just dont appeal to me as much sadly.
im sure i will find a happy medium one day.
till then 
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