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| My very first girlfriend
by marc80 at 9/18/2009 5:33:13 AM
It was July of 2000 and I met an 18 year old at college. We both were taking a summer course. I saw her and I had never dated anyone at this point. She saved me a seat. Really was not sure what was up with her. Not really interested in dating yet. I knew she was a little different (in the way she acted). People used to make fun of her. "How is your special girlfriend doing"? I felt obligated to date her since she liked me. Was not mentally or physically attracted to her at all. We did a lot of dating. Now she did say the most inappropriate things at the worst times. We were once waiting for a bus (since neither of us drove) and she said this morning we had an African American bus driver) lets just say there were over 50 people that fit that category. She did not realize what she said was wrong. I knew it obviously was. We started dating immediately. Ironically one of her friends I had met two years before. I really liked her but at the time she was only 14 and I was almost 18. I wound up getting her phone number and email address while I was dating Karen. From the day I met Robyn I liked her. She came on our dates as well. There were many times her mother despised the fact I was Jewish being that they were so big into Catholicism. I remember when Christmas and Hanukkah came she had an excuse why my gift could not be wrapped in Hanukkah wrapping paper. She had said she could not find any. Karen had told me previously she really did not like the fact I was Jewish and they were not. I went to both Christmas parties for her family with them. Yes, it was nice to be amongst her family but according to her she was an accident. Her youngest brother was over 13 years older than her. In January of 2001 I decided to break up with her. She was not really my type. She was not happy about that. I still kept in touch with Robyn. Robyn kept giving me excuses why we could not date. Since I dated one of her best friends. I saw Karen in school. I remember promising her around the time 9/11 took place that we would hang out. On the morning of December 6th 2001, she was hit by a car and killed. That night Robyn called me with the news Karen is dead. I said you are kidding. She said no she is dead. I am serious. That Sunday I went to the wake. It really did not hit me until the last few years. I sort of took it in stride. But, she still is my longest relationship ever. That was also the beginning of the end of the good times in my life. Did I really feel we belonged together? NO!!!!!!!!!! I probably should have ended it a lot sooner. I was already on my 3rd relationship when she died. Many things started happening after that it sort of was an ending of the good times or sort of good times that I had in my life. Robyn, and I kept in contact until about 2004. We did go out on one date. She was always looking for the bad boy which I was not. Through a mess of unfortunate circumstances we stopped speaking. I got involved with the wrong people and a lot of changes happened. I don't know if it was growing up and experiencing life after be sheltered for so long. Or did I just lose who I was and wanted to be looked upon as some great guy? I never did get involved in drugs. One of the many things I look back upon and wonder what could have been. What if I would have said no? Would all the changes have taken place? I would not have met up with Robyn again.
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