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| my cry for help.......
by wrestlingchic88 at 9/22/2009 6:56:28 PM
I don't get life anymore. I thought I had everything all figured out. I thought I knew who I can trust and who not to trust. I hate having to fake this smile. I just wana tell people the pain I'm feeling but it seems like there's no1 to run to. Maybe words aren't enough for me. I need people to show me they care. Why can I do that but when it comes to me that doesn't exist? I just don't get how I can go thru all my life thinking I can turn to my family for help and when I need it the most but they are the ones beating me furthur into the ground.How do I cope with that feeling? Why can't people just be who they make themselves out to be to me? Why do I have to turn over and look over my shoulder and see how much happier people are? Or are they also faking a smile just like me? Why do I always end up with the wrong guy? Am I that easy to spot out in a crowd knowing I'm easily fooled? Then I'm lookd at as a bad person because I put up a wall around myself. Am I'm being punished for something I did wrong? Please I need these questions anwsered to put my mind at rest!! Why can't I go to bed happy for once? I'm just tired of feeling alone in this world. Or do I have to continue to fake this smile?
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