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by sifu071 at 10/1/2009 7:02:42 AM
I feel this acute awareness of all the people that have passed in my live either by death or by choice,
When I love...I love forever.
I guess I just want to send a mass message out to everyone who been a part of my life, everyone who has ever shared love with me, male or female, and I want to tell them that it's not over.it will never be over, because I will always love you in your own unique and precious way.
Why is it we can love someone so much.someone who...could care less?
I think every person at some point in there life has that love, that is so unhealthy and it..
that makes absolutely no sense because, they don't treat you right, they don't love you the way you love them.
For some reason your hooked.......And typically it only takes one time and one love to learn your lesson and to.....
to look for the right person from then on.
There is something about that person, that you pour your whole heart and soul into.....who......who never notices, and if you take the chance........If your determinant............You know.. I'm not going to let this go with out telling them exactly how you feel so you muster up all the courage and you......you tell that person.
No matter where you go in life........No matter what you come across, always know there is someone out there that loves you.............and that's me.
And to be blown off by that person.........What is it?............What is it about those who never love us back?
Maybe it's safer.........maybe you can give everything cause there giving nothing?
And so some how there's a balance in that.......I don't know.
Love comes...and it goes before you can realize....cause your so wrapped up in the emotion, and again you think it is going to last forever....and then before you know it it's over.
And all you have are the memories to hold on to, and to play over, and over in your head.
And you keep playing them over and over in your head in some sort of hope that they won't dim or diminish.
The crudity of fate is that they do....What you once thought you would hold on to and remember with vivid detail forever,
no longer barely even grasp.
That's the nature of love...we love for a time, and for a season we love hopefully abandonly with our whole heart.
I will forever be struck that we can believe in something with our entire spirit...it can be fierce and fighting.
Our faith can be unwavering, and yet that is not enough to keep people with us.
Death and live alike take them away......I am scared of all the people I am yet to lose....I think of those that matter right now and try to envision how, and when they will leave my life.
I think of the ones I see and say,"What ever happen to us?, we use to be so close?"
"Life.... that's what happen." they say.
I miss everyone right now.........everyone that use to be a part of my life......All those holes now in my heart.
No matter how far those people go...no matter how far apart we grow, no matter what life does to us I still love them all.
Some.........much more than others.
Sifu
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