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by reservation18 at 10/19/2009 12:46:54 PM
i have been thinking lately where do i go from here its like everyday life seems to get harder as the days go by two weeks ago my dad pass the only man whom i have ever love is now gone from my life. i try getting over his death but apparently i cant. went down to new york couple days ago for the funeral n i know this kind of seems low but i did not attend because somewhere in my mind i keep saying to myself he's just sleeping when reality is he's gone. he was my best friend i must say he taught me everything i know he made me the beauitful intelligent n funny young lady that i am today grew up with nine guys my brothers n being the only female in that household made me realise how i wish it would stay that way forever. the irony is im never gonna see my dad again i had sisters but we never stayed n the same house i never knew who my mom was until i was 18 which was about 5months ago i feel bad that i didnt go to the funeral but i dont know how i would handle it if i did. i wrote him a peom because he loved my poems n when i read it to my family that night at the house everyone cried thier brains out everyone knew how close my father n i was i mean he taught me how to walk my first words was dada win he would go on business trip he would send me silly lil texts like who my girl? n he taught me to be strong n live above the bad things in life n his last words was tell my germany dont cry so i tried not to but it happen anyway if he was here i wouldnt know how to say my goodbyes n but i would t tell him to watch over me always he die cuz he had heart problems but he was always strong but i guess god had bigger plans n heaven for him. just one thing i wud ask god is please take care of my father cuz he was all i had n now i have to live this thing they call life alone. im still gonna be focus n willing to achieve the goals that i have set because i know my dad would not let me fail. i love you dad n always will. Peace
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