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| i can do bad by myself
by bri80 at 10/29/2009 9:42:49 AM
iam curently in a so caled relationship.on and of now for 12 long years.but mostly on.we have four beautiful children together.i love my children ultimatly and i do love him as wel.but i dont think our relationship is healthy at all.i dont believe we need or should be together.iam not who i wana be when iam with him.right now we are living in two diffrent states and thats so ok with me.we argue and fight constantly and ive been threw so much shit its unreal but no one has ever hurt me the way he hurts me
and i dont no why that is.i try to break it off but he is so aggresive he threatens me alot and i stay.he does love me in his own way .and ive loved him with everything in me.when we make love theres so much pasion and the sex is unbelievable but that doesnt kep me although he tels me how god it is al the time i know thats not the reason hes there either but i just dont no sometimes i hate him more than anything.the thing is that i just dont no what to do i want to love and be loved to the fulest.i dont no if iam wrong for looking for somthing more iam a lover and iam good at it iam capable of making someone feel the right one unbelievable and in return the feling is mutual i want to give my al to someone but i also want to feel as if iam someones everything.is that to much?????
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