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Remission
by shakti at 11/3/2009 6:53:04 PM

I am in remission, the sickness slowly but surely leaving my body. Gaining strength and confidence, I leave myself open to your disease-saturated soul. Recognizing the pain, I lend some of my newfound vitality, only to be rebuffed and sucked into your black void...

I am drained, helpless in the face of your self-imposed plight. Thoughts of sacrificial love dance obsessively through my mind. Remembrance crashes into consciousness, bringing with it my old pal rage...

I am disgusted in your insatiable desire for borrowed life force, and sickened by my instantaneous impulse to provide it. The hole I created to fill your infinite emptiness yawns inside of me...

I look to the stars for sustenance, steal some shine from an endless source and start building the fortress to keep you out. I am in remission and can't risk a relapse.

Fall 2000

Comments
jennyann71	11/4/2009 2:39:33 PM remission is always a good thing and thanks for sharing the insightful hopes and visions of this thing called Life's Forces.
dunrich2 online now!	11/4/2009 3:35:59 PM Wow Shakti. "Decision is the spark that ignites action. Until a decision is made, nothing happens.... Decision is the courageous facing of issues, knowing that if they are not faced, problems will remain forever unanswered."Wilfred A. Peterson
mw2	11/5/2009 5:34:26 PM Tara - can the depressing moody b.s. You can either focus on the positive or the negative. Obviously this was a long time ago but still..... I've been in some relationships where I got used and burned beyond recognition. I came out of it knowing I had valuable experience and insight, knowing I'd not make the same mistake twice and believing that good, bad, or indifferent I had loved hard and ridden a roller coaster most are too afraid to get anywhere near. Life rocks baby - even when it sucks! Miss you. Take care, David
cherlyab	11/5/2009 9:31:44 PM thank u