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| 11-3-09
by sushisakelady at 11/3/2009 7:33:31 PM
I'm a nice lady going thru some heartache right now. My mother has alzheimer's and my father is trying to be strong and goes to see her everyday and holds her hand and kisses her and tells her he loves her. I appreciate him so much for being the man he is...true and in love till death do they part. I've been torn apart by this and not going out. I would love to meet a nice man who understands my situation and can be kind to me during this time. My father has had hospice come and take care of my mother when he is not there. She is in a nursing home which is very nice and the staff takes good care of her, but, we do not want her going to the hospital anymore and just want her kept comfortable. It hurts so bad. Hurts that I have nobody to lean on or talk to about this. I'm losing my best friend, my mother. She took me shopping all the time and always told me "pick something out, just go, pick out something you want and let me get it for you." And I used to tell her I didn't want anything but of course she would find the perfect slacks or blouse for me and I would feel guilty she was so good to me. It hurts. I cry. I'm crying deep inside. I need comfort. I need a friend. I need company. I need love. I need so much and have nothing at this point except heartache that I feel for my mother. Is there a man out there for me? They say "every pot has a cover." They say "when you're not looking for it you'll find it." They say "when its beshert it'll be." So my question is...will it happen before I grow short and saggy? I just want to kiss and love and hug. Mommy I wish so much you'd wake up one morning and be the woman you were. Oh my heart hurts so much. So very very much. In the pit of my stomach. Help me please. Give me strength and my father. I love them both so much.
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