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by ayeshah at 2/7/2008 12:01:26 PM
You knew how very fragile my heart was and how
shaken I was when it comes to love. You embraced me,Touching my mind.Cloaked In Imagery.Images that once haunted My soul.I thought We was so suited. Now I question My thoughts.I once even question me-myself and what I knew best.Well what I thought was best for me.For us!Now I'm not so sure anymore.With superb sharpness You manifested your persona with in me,like I was an actor playing a role.May hap even taken the lead.Until your Criticism lead me to believe I had to be something I wasn't.Change and do it again from ACT 1 Part 2 in this theatrical play. You used me like a flute.Playing on my naivety and in perfect form you strummed my weakness. You've taken my indulgence of love to newer heights as you comforted me with lies. You see through to my naked emotions.Hidden in rhythms.Now as you play havoc once again on my mind. On my emotions. It stirs this beating heart into resubmission.unlawfully I'm giving into Your Webs of deceitfulness.Dressed in sophicated words just like your repertoire.So sharp and bright clad in imagery and intelligent thoughts.Thinking of how else to mold me to your desire.With good reasoning I try to escape the beauty You bring into my life,Cause it's an illusion and your the illusionist. Act 2 part 1. The stage is set and your play book's a fitting tone for the scenes about to play out. My matching style sets the roles of appreciative lover.Undercover thou you begin to play with my heart.Embedded in this expensive fashion you call love,Yet lust is evidently clear.I'm a toy you've put here.To play the part of WIFE.You didn't know,Well YES there's a price to pay.While I add up the chargers on US since You outfitted me with your costly devotion!Bringing tears to these eyes.And questions to my all seeing mind. As you peel away layers of my metaphor-Concurring me or so you think to try,Lie's after lie.I listen never letting you know I have yet to give in.I play my role good.Like a "Wife" should. My demeanor's superb and my attitude's in check.Isn't this how you like it? Deep down I laugh inside my insanity.,Hiding who I am and playing the actor just for you.Vivid image emerges again cuz I can't speak what's really in my heart.
I continue to let you Play out Act 3 part 3 of a million more scripts!They're expressively unique. these role's you have me playing.
Now it's over and the role's have all been played from "Friend","Lustful Lover",Even playing the part of "wh*re"From that to "Wife" May hap I'll now play the role of Your New "BABIES MOMMA" I got memories.Too damn many..,Like fossils deeply implanted.You've got them molded forever in time.
Imprinted inside my core.Passing my heart or mind,
My soul cried out as I embed them deeper inside.Hiding them.I can't now let anyone else in.I seared many years for the "ONE" Now all I have is this script for the rest of my living years.Pains piercing creeping thoughts take effect on my insane brain, taking root in my spirit.Why am I tripping over feeling's I never thought to have for you.I Never thought to feel for you like this.I'm a train wreck and crashing fast on a course into gloom&doom.
With no perfect gait outlined Like silhouette on the mind.Immediately My crippled soul has found it's place. See I knew you'd like it After all it's the script you wrote isn't it? I lay down in this misery while my spirit is release.Illusions Is what's happening as You consume me again&again Mind f**king and torturing I submitted to all the roles.once and for all I take the lead as what ever you told me I had to be.
Act 4 Scene 32.
I'm captured.Taking to Ecstasy while you lie to me with tenderness., Kissing me, Into doing your bidding. Restless hands so strong.I say in Your embrace "what can go wrong?" My body's dented with grief unraveled as part of this puzzle comes so Crystal clear.You had me feeling beaten down like twisted rubble like a tin can.
Increase with flavored pork You know that nasty salty grease,I've never eaten.I was trapped.As your pelvis grind-ed against mines.I cried out YES O Yes
cuz the pleasuring pressure's from lovers lust was everything that Your heart didn't-wouldn't or maybe You couldn't give to me.or maybe you just didn't want either. So many times So many Men. if only You knew you make number 6.Had My mind abused.With words,lies misrepresentation just to indulge me whimsically play a game on me and even more than likely take control of me. You've confused me purposely! Now
I play out these scenes again!Act 5 part 99.Sstroke me with love.If you know whats good for you.No more
Insignificant stories! Lets play out the parts of Woman and Man. You be her & I'll be him.This time you walk out the door and never come back again.Because I can no longer be the star of this script. Not in this PLAY.This Silence speaks in volume, Echoing what is known already All this that you do to me is just another..............
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