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by creativegirl at 4/6/2008 1:41:50 PM
i know the only things worth having are not easy to obtain without work and effort.i work so hard to get the things i want and need,but in the end i never feel like i'm enough.for example i meet a guy i think is perfect for me-so i make time to see him and stay in contact-but it in the end it never seems like i'm good enough.this last man i saw he was perfect for me-or so i thought.i knew he didn't want a relationship right away,but i thought in time it might become a relationship.he's been really busy with work,so i was working around it so that i could see him bc i really care and want to spend time with him and i thought he wanted to spend time with me as well.now he's way too busy for me-all these other things are more important.he won't talk to me on the phone and is not returning my texts.i knew this would happen,it always does...i just don't understand why this keeps happening.when did it become wrong to care and wanna be with someone?don't guys want a girl that cares about them and actually wants be there and help them when they need it.maybe i'm old-fashioned,but i was brought up to be a helper,giver,someone to care.i took care of my father after all his surgeries(he is still alive btw)i want to take care of a man,but not babysit him.i got shit of my own to do,but i make time for the people i care about.i know a man won't make me happy-that's not what i want.i want to find my soulmate-i never believed in them before,but after the perfect guy i do-but i guess he's not really perfect bc he won't make time for me.this makes me sad,bc yet again i'm without.i don't know what else to do.i believe in love but never totally experienced it.the one and only time i've ever loved it was one sided.if anyone is reading this and wants to give me some words of wisdom-now is a good time.
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