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by merleisme at 4/14/2008 12:29:31 AM
The more I look the more challenging this search seems to be. Life is in a building point as of now and time progresses on though I'm single its alright but there are times when I just want to wrap my arms around someone. Anxious is the word I should probably be using for the title of this blog but I'm learning that being this way is only torturous to my own feeling of self worth. Contentment with being me on my own seems to be the most challenging part of my life emotionally. Being able to put up my own defenses to not allow criticism to affect me negatively and not falling headlong when acceptance comes. Trust is a huge issue, in myself and those that are around me. I bounce around in my head thoughts of wondering why people have certain motives and bother myself with what there opinions might be.. Am I crazy? or am I just brutally honest. I've found that you never know what love truly is until its not around anymore. I know if I find love I intend to fight for it. The things I took for granted because I decided that my needs were more important to me then those of the ones I said I loved. Losing track and eventually watching all that might have blossomed slip through my fingers. Honest love is all I want. Something that endures and is worthy of a lifetime of investment. Partying,drinking,having sex and all that are all fun and games when it is there at your fingertips but in the end is pointless, really leaving a hole of where your innocence once was before your "love" went undervalued.
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