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| Another installment about if I am screwed up
by simbasfriend at 5/19/2008 6:23:28 PM
Ok I found out weird news today, two friends that I know are now dating. I am happy for them but it makes me wonder about my life and if I want that or what the heck I do want.
If someone special on here reads this then please just understand I need to vent and just express my feelings. This is the best forum for me to say what I want and not be judged.
Here is a problem I have:
I am wondering what I need in a mate or if I need a mate. Maybe I am too screwed up to be with anyone.
I know that I have to be lucky that I do have someone who loves me for me and nothing else but am I worthy of that love. I am not so sure. I think sometimes I am beyond fixing. I cannot understand why people like me. I have friends that seem to like me and I have no reason why.
There have been a few times in my life where I have had to put myself out to someone only to be rejected. These were men I thought I had a lot in common with. We could talk about anything, we had similar interests but they rejected me for one reason or another.
Now I have someone I am totally attracted to but I am not sure if we have all that much in common. What is important. I have been told that anything is possible as long as you love someone, and yet I wonder.
What do normal humans need? I wish I knew. Again here I am asking other people how I should be because I feel the need to please. I have no idea who I am and what I really feel. I guess maybe I need to find out who I am so I could be complete with someone else.
TO be continued I am sure
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