bobbiemgee
Conway, SC
age: 42
| Venting my insanity
((((I dont want to be like this anymore)))))
I stare deep into the mirror.
My eyes are locked on those of my reflection.
I have been trying to understand how you found out
How vulnerable I was.
I’m trying to see how you could look into my mind
And see that I would do anything for you
My soul is full of anguish
The pain has become unreal
Just wish that I could end it
I cannot survive the way I feel.
I wanted more than just the infactuation,
that you found in me.
You said love was only a distraction,
that you really didn’t need,
so I cried myself to sleep,
knowing the times we shared must end.
You couldn’t let emotion run deep,
you said you made love to me, as a friend
You said you liked how I loved you,
and this way we’d never part.
To keep me at a distance,
And deny me your heart.
So why did I let you lie and pretend
that youd fallen in love with me,
Play your game and act as if
all of it was slowly destroying me
You took my pride,my soul
my heart, my dignity.
And still you wanted more
You tore things from meI didnt have to give
When you deicded that someone like me
Didnt deserve to live
I still sit here,alone in my head
listening to the silent screams
as my pain takes my breath
I dont konw how to feel anymore
I want to HATE you for all you did
yet the fact I still love you
Is something I keep hid
I take one last look in the mirror
and see all that this has done
turning away,I wipe my eyes
and swear ill get over this
For if not.......you have won.
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akashaman
Brunswick, OH
age: 29
| fantastic if you are willing to accept a critique the word is infatuation
other than that the imagery is all too real. A sign of great work. Please continue to write and post, it honestly does wonders for you. Don't be afraid to post your darkest most hidden fears and thoughts. I will gladly read them as things have not been easy for me. I have come to the state of writing I have as the result of not being afraid to write how I am feeling. Thank you so much for sharing. I really enjoyed it, and feel very deeply for you, I know the situation and the feelings all too well. The reality in your piece is what endears it to me. No one should ever hide what they are going through.
I hope you don't mind my comments but truth is truth and reality is reality. I know first hand that misery does not always love company. I am here from you if you ever need to vent, I will not judge you for what you say or the complaints you have.
Thank you again, I am in a dark spot right now myself. I am willing to help you through it if that is what you need. I realize how much of oneself comes out in their writing, if I can help anyone in any capacity I am more than willing to put the effort forth.
Your friend in writing reality.....
Akashamen
 
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steve419
New Port Richey, FL
age: 29
| Verry beautiful baby.....Kind of left me speachless!!! WOW!!! I know that I've been there!! Your to sweet and beautiful to feel this way....And I'm sure you do!!! Wish I could do somthin to help you move on from that feelin!!! Like I said your to sweet and beautiful. Much love fore ya boobies (.)(.)
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