| 4/22/2008 11:33:27 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
judi35
Madisonville, KY
age: 59
| Yes I have depression....yes it's one of those days.
One of those days I wake up feeling something is wrong and cry for no known reason.
One of those days I want to stay in bed...not answer the phone or the knock at the door.
One of those days I do not want to go to the nursing home to visit my Mom...watching her slowly leave us...watching her depend on an oxygen machine...some days barely managing to smile(she has a beautiful smile).
One of those days of not wanting to think about my daughter...where she's at...where her life style is taking her.
One of those days of feeling inadequate...lonely...and tired...so damn tired.
Yes...one of those days of feeling guilty for feeling selfpity.
Yes I know it's the disease.Yes I know too I will have better days.(thank God)
Yes I know it's...One Of Those Days.
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| 4/22/2008 12:31:55 PM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
teddybear73
Honesdale, PA
age: 35
| you are not alone on this one my dear sweet princess. I wish you all the best on this and please accept this as proof that you are not alone.
This was written on one of those days, a Friday, as I remember, although remembering with Epilepsy is difficult too.
I have fought with this for so long
Everyday sitting on the edge
I am so sick of trying to blow out a forest fire with a drinking straw
It’s all about to overwhelm me
I am weak and unwilling to fight anymore
I may just indeed succumb to its will
Why fear the inevitable
My questions have no answers
As a matter of fact
I am the answer to everyone else’s questions
This is what happens
When the mind breaks its leash and jumps the fence
I no longer have the strength or scruples left to dam the flood
Whatever happens herewith is the product of a mad society
That breeds madness in its spawn
I have been kicked and battered, sneered at, played with, toyed about, laughed at, used, and portrayed as a whipping post by this world all of my life.
What happens when an intelligent, gentle, kind soul turncoats?
When it transpires, you’ll never have to ask again
F**K EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Teddybear73
28 years now, you and I know each other, I wish you well, and all you love.
Best of the world 2 you dear, you deserve it more than anyone.  
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| 4/22/2008 5:57:08 PM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
garnetlady
Cincinnati, OH
age: 48
| I hope by now you are feeling better.
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| 4/23/2008 5:45:01 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
teddybear73
Honesdale, PA
age: 35
| That is why I wrote the poem...
and over 50 others of differing attitudes.
It just helps to get the thoughts out of the mind
to stop chewing on me and start on the paper.
That was the first anyone ever saw that....
I apologize for its terror..
It did help quite a bit..
and still does today.
I hope everyone has a good day in the sunshine with pleasant thoughts of spring.
God bless.
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| 4/23/2008 11:56:07 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
judi35
Madisonville, KY
age: 59
| Garnetlady...thank you, I'm feeling so much better.
Teddy...Though your poem may seem dark,I understand.Being that those words were wrote long ago shows me that you're coping.I hope you have not had to go it alone. I've got a fantastic family dr. and a great mental health therapist. There is also a mental health Dr.,aaaaa...about him I'll just say,.. (glad I do'nt see him much.  ) Took awhile to fine the right med.,but we did find it.So now (those days) are few and far between.I also have great family and friends.
About the writing...I kept a daily log,for some time.So yes it does help.
I hope we all continue to get better.
God Bless 
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| 4/24/2008 4:06:02 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
iamnumber5
Saint Augustine, FL
age: 49
| Hi Judi
Oh I understand those days all to well.
So sorry, I tried to post some funny pics but
couldnt get them to do it. Im sorry.
Janelle
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| 4/24/2008 6:15:25 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
teddybear73
Honesdale, PA
age: 35
| Faith stays with me and I will not give up with all the support of an awesome family who goes through a lot as well.
Not a problem at all, just Dr's are part of the reason for it.
I will be the cure to myself. always been that way, one at a time.
Thank you for this thread. 
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| 4/24/2008 6:04:36 PM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
foxy_woman_49
Omaha, NE
age: 50
| *hugs* judi
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| 4/26/2008 5:46:49 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
piscestinyfish
Greenfield, MA
age: 49
| why is it, when u are having one of those days, ppl say get over it. i find ppl who don't suffer with depression don't really know about, only what they read in books, oh if it was only that easy.
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| 4/26/2008 5:57:53 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
teddybear73
Honesdale, PA
age: 35
| I think they say "get over it" because they are closer to going through it than they think and the more they see you suffering from it the more that reminds them of where they are in regards to their position to where you are and do not want to fall into the well of depression. 
SO them telling you to "get over it" is really them telling themselves to do the same.
Do not take it personally from them them watching you is really them seeing themselves in 30 minutes...
So next time you hear that, you may want to just smile at the person and walk away or tell them to get over themselves.
God Bless
[Edited 4/26/2008 5:58:38 AM]
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| 4/26/2008 6:12:36 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
piscestinyfish
Greenfield, MA
age: 49
| thanks teddybear never really thought to look at it that. but i have had proffesional ppl tell me that. usually i seek another doc as he must not understand the turmoil i go through everyday when i wake up. yes i know it's my decision to have a good day or a bad day, but somedays that is easier said then done.
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| 4/27/2008 5:46:02 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
foxy_woman_49
Omaha, NE
age: 50
| with pain you are as well given anti-depressants
pain is a viscous cycle
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| 4/27/2008 8:13:43 AM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
piscestinyfish
Greenfield, MA
age: 49
| thanks once again foxy, i'm assuming FM is fibromyalgia? I'm not happy with this doctor but I have a phsyical in June and I'm going to see what happens then. Doctors are hard to come by these days, especially when I don't have many choices. I get through each day one at a time. I have the support of my boyfriend.My kids just aren't getting it. Because I walk normal, they think I'm not in pain,guess I need to moan and groan more. But I feel what good does complaining do. I will do my complaining to the doctor in June. Take Care like these discussions.
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| 4/27/2008 2:44:36 PM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
judi35
Madisonville, KY
age: 59
|  #... ..
Foxy...Thanks for the hug.
Pices...A good Dr. will listen to what your feeling.After all who knows more about ones self than ourself.But not all Dr.listen.
Hugs to all, Judi
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| 4/27/2008 5:32:03 PM | Depression-( one of those days) | |
unfortunate1
Pleasant Garden, NC
age: 52
| You are not alone. I am very much in the same boat that you are in. Alot of ppl don't understand it and don't believe in it, but it's there. Day by day it's here. I do wish you great happinest. I try with all my being to smile to cover up these deep down feelings. It helps at times. Keep smiling and I'll keep you in mind.
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