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by divinemetal555 at 7/1/2016 5:43:51 AM


Its for the thoughts and feelings I didn't have room for on my profile


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divinemetal555
7/1/2016 5:50:45 AM

I've become the creature you created, now that I'm jaded. Tell me how I should feel, love has faded and my heart has grown so cold, and its become so hard for me to say what I feel, you layed your hands upon me, showing me who you really are. As i felt forced to hold my breath . I must have been a mistake or just a blur in your vision. I hate you for every time you made me bleed,now I stand alone dreams turning into nightmares.I fear I'm losing the will to live, drifting further everyday. Seeking the end to set me free,this loss is all to real, in this moment I have nothing left to give. All that left is to say goodbye. As I cut off circulation and contemplate suicide this is the my last resort, losing my breath as I grow disturbed . nothing makes since to me anymore I can't explain it.all I want is salvation in my dreams, something I can never have. I can still here the echo of there voice , and it still brings tears.and it slowly tears me apart.making my heart turn gray, reminding me of what I used to be.

divinemetal555
7/2/2016 12:49:33 AM

I wrote that the other day,

divinemetal555
7/2/2016 12:52:21 AM

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh (grips fists tighter and tighter) AHHHHHHHHHH (blood begins to run and drip from my fists) AHHHHHH head games, wh*res , and psycho's you won't break me, I will never submit to you, or surrender to you .no matter how much misery or alone I feel. My heart may be broken and shattered, my dreams just as shattered. But my will and determination is intact and stronger than ever, deep inside I've become distant and disattatched from the pain I live with everyday. waiting for that one to find me, to summon me, to end this pain and bridge this feeling of true love and completion. I will wait until the end of my life for this person if I have too. my halo may be dark, but it burns bright thru the darkest of hours and nights. Waiting for her, those that know me, know this is all to true. I desperately cling to hope and faith while waiting for her, falling in and out depression, waiting for her love, to bridge this desire and this dream into reality. This broken heart will go back to hell, to find her if need be. So be it, no price is to high to find her.if I have to flip every rock and look in every creavise in hell to find her. Consider it done. I won't rest until her hand holds mine, and our hearts beat together as one as we become each other's saving grace and one another's dark halo.this broken heart has no limits, I will defy all odds to find her.these words might be mirrored by pain and anguish, but no words have ever been spoken more true.I'm going to find her, this I promise . call my name and summon me. I will call yours, and summon you. we will bridge the distance together. Our desire will become one for each other , as our dreams will become a way of life between us. We will live this life as one, healing each other, restoring what has been lost, stolen, and what we gave away over the year's. Becoming whole again thru the unconditional love that we have for each other.I fall asleep waiting for you, awaking to this misery thinking where are you. Just give me a clue, I won't rest until your safe, I need you ,i know you need me , where are you? Show me the mirror of your torment and despair , I will shatter it, with my love for you .and I will protect you against all odds I give you my word. There's nothing I can't handle for you. I would die protecting you if I have too. I wouldn't hesitate saving you, Truth be told I rather give my life.To save yours then live without you

divinemetal555
7/2/2016 12:54:09 AM

There's more to this just didn't have room for it, apparently it can only do 2500 characters in a single blog

divinemetal555
7/2/2016 12:55:53 AM

Mostly what I write is dark and sad with a twist of beauty.like a black rose

divinemetal555
7/2/2016 1:01:31 AM

Make no mistake I am happy with myself, and don't mind being alone for the most part. But I am interested in a relationship with the right person, but don't think for a second I'm desperate, its my choice to be alone. I've said no to more chicks in the last few years then most will ever get an opportunity too.

divinemetal555
7/2/2016 1:04:54 AM

I am waiting for that one woman,that can make me glow, and put that twinkle in my eyes, that makes your heart race when you see her, that fills you with excitement just thinking about her

divinemetal555
7/3/2016 4:14:46 PM

This what I am... I'm a Taurus and an Aries mix, I'm in the cusp Individuals born on the Aries-Taurus cusp have a dominant personality? you always know when they are in the room. They can make quite an impression on those around them. Their forceful personalities make them good leaders when they choose to be. They are also commonly found climbing the corporate ladder, becoming well known freelancers or running any situation, whether it is at home or in business. Aries-Taurus does not like to submit to the authority of others. They must beware of being overwhelmed by their own ambition. They are conflicted between their Aries and Taurus counterparts. Aries wishes them to be impulsive, energetic and intuitive, while Taurus is practical, sensuous and well-grounded. This may cause conflicts between practicality and dreams. In some cases, Aries-Taurus Cusp works well, with Taurus tempering the fiery boldness of Aries to a strong, determined realism. They may, at times, show a lack of emotional sensitivity that may be alarming to some. Aries-Taurus must fight their immovable nature with their forceful nature. It may take a long time for them to reach a balance that works well for them. They will need to learn to support their wish for stability with their aggressive side. Aries-Taurus is good at strategizing; allowing them to overcome what may seem like overwhelming odds. If they follow their instinct, they will know precisely when the right time is to act. Taurus helps Aries to plan each detail in preparation for their goal, so they almost always succeed. Aries-Taurus should learn to sit back and watch sometimes so they don't overwhelm others. It is difficult for them to sit back and watch others do tasks when they know they can do it better. If they can keep the feelings of others in mind, they will fare well. They enjoy challenges of all kinds, whether it is in business, sports or intellectual areas. They play as hard as they work. They are known to be flirtatious, bold, opinionated, strong, quiet, talented, sensitive, humorous, money-oriented, eloquent, dependable, practical, patient, aggressive, helpful, aloof, stubborn, jealous, moody, fickle, over-sensitive, quarrelsome and changeable. Quite a handful, aren't they? The Aries-Taurus Cusp is also known as the Cusp of Power. You can probably see why when they have so much going for them. They have the amazing ability to get into a project and really run with it all the way to its conclusion.

divinemetal555
7/3/2016 4:16:32 PM

They enjoy doing things for their family and friends, but it is easy to let this get out of hand. They prefer to follow their own instincts rather than follow the rules. This can cause trouble if they are not cautious. They may think they know it all, but they'll get along better if they don't act like it. While plans that go awry make them really annoyed, when they use a practical bent to their tasks, it generally works out better. Those born on the Aries-Taurus cusp may be mechanically inclined, with the ability to stick with the job long enough to figure out any problems that arise.

divinemetal555
7/4/2016 3:38:36 AM

That's what my horoscope definition is, lol its pretty on track for the most part